bet’s

I never know that a disaster can turn into something good,,

After we had a really fucklentine day *haha*, then suddenly it came out.

The  truth of what happened in our lives. Came from the heart.

I never guessed that they will share their feelings to me, because we never had a serious conversation before. We used to have fun together,, not to share our feelings.

Then all the stories were spoken. And it’s quite hard for them. I know I can’t  confronted their stories, so I just listened to it and responded when necessary.

Everybody has their own problems, they do. It just not everybody has an ability to handle it, to solve it, to have peace with it. If they can’t stand it, sometimes they do the crazy things.

I’m not going to be a wise person who tells them to do this and not to do that. Instead I was encouraging them to get on their own feet. Don’t fall apart because of the probs. Well, I believe everything happens for a reason, so with the probs that happen to us. Just fight until the end, then you will see the beauty of it and you will smile at it.

I’m not twaddling. I’m not! I’ve been in this position before. Seems like everything against me. I’m in the middle of nowhere. Stucks! There is no open door for me. I was surrounded by high walls. I was trying hard to survive, though it takes time, but finally I made it!

If I can, so DO YOU!!!
- memory of fUcKLenTInE day,, dedicated to B&K 160209 -

I just wanna scream, kick people’s ass, hit people’s face, aarrggh [which impossible for me to do *hehehe*]

I can’t handle it, it’s not my cup of tea anymore,

Time goes by so quickly, I don’t even realise it!

[Sighs],, hellooooo,, anybody can help me?

Pls take me out of this bloody mess!!!

It’s almost 4 years,, I can’t be here anymore,, I’m gonna be drowned..

HELP ME,, SAVE MY SOUL,,

I become a hypocrite,, half an angel, half a devil,,

turns out to be an asshole like others.. SUCKS!

Just LEAVE ME ALONE,, MIND YOUR OWN BUSINESS, will ya!!!!

It’s NOT ME!! I’M NOT LIKE YOU!! I’M DIFFERENT,, at least I’M TRYING TO BE A BETTER PERSON!!

Don’t tell me about those rubbish,, keep it for yourself!

I won’t listen it any longer, I have had it enough!

I have my own ‘mess’ and ‘rubbish’,, I’ll take care of it,, don’t worry,,

Just BACK OFF,,

I’m going to chase my dream again,, I won’t let you block my way!!!

- during d hectic of my thoughts, 130209 -