bet’s

I have a battle inside of me.
A battle!
Between what is good and what is bad.
Goodness or badness.
Which one is right or which one is wrong.
Should I do this or should I do that.
Shouldn’t I do this or shouldn’t I do that.
Go straight or turn.

Gee, I got mix up with everything.
Seems like everything against me, against what I hold on to.
Thing doesn’t like it used to be.
And I started to enjoy it.
I enjoyed for being the opposite of the-old-me.

I became someone that I don’t even recognize.
I couldn’t find me anymore.
I am a stranger for myself.
It drags me away from the-real-me.

Then, I found no joy in it.
Feels I got lost.
Don’t know which way to go.
I have to find the-old-me again.
I know it was scattered everywhere.
I have to collect it, piece by piece.

- 2 years in crisis, 200807, 1 am -