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‘Rorate’, a step towards Christmas..

I like dat mebbe not everybody knows abt ‘rorate’,, well, me too!*at 1st* Until I attended Christmas Concert that was presented by Creative Musical Group-STT Jakarta. It said dat ‘rorate’ is d name of d 4th week of Advent,, means diz week..

The concert itself was marvellous!!! They didn’t use many music instruments, only organ, piano n some traditional music instruments,, I like d idea of using d traditional music instruments n d choir! For me,, it means dat if we praise d Lord, it doesn’t need a lot of music instruments! D important thing is wot come from d heart,, n I think dat wot they did. Good! 2 thumbs up!!!

Actually, for d last couple days,, I found myself full of Christmas spirit,, I attended Christmas concerts, played and sang Christmas songs, everything abt Christmas!!! How I love it!

Then I think,, dat’s not d main idea for d Christmas,, It’s not abt d celebration, d songs, d gifts, d Christmas tree, etc. NOPE! It’s not abt it,, Rite now,, I have this on my mind, "So diz is Christmas,, wot have I done? "

Dat’s a good question,, WOT HAVE I DONE???

Gosh,, I dunno,, wot have I done? Wot have I done for others? I guess d answer will b NOTHING!! Well, mebbe I did something,, but it aint worthed with wot God has done for me,, I admit dat for diz last 2 years,, I was too busy thinking abt myself,, I run away from all d good things dat I used to do,, in fact all d good things dat once I had in me,, seems dissappeared,, I bcum some1 dat I don’t even recognised,, —Until now,, I work very hard 2 put myself back together,, I really do!—

Sometimes I think,, "Hey, wot’s wrong with me? Is it being live in Jakarta changed me a lot?" Well, dat’s not an excuse, a lot of ppl who live in Jakarta still do d good things hehehe.

I dunno,, some ppl said dat I’m a good person *hmmm, so flattered :p* but 4 me,, rite now,, coz I’m starting to be far from Him,, I feel something missing,,feels like in d middle of nowhere *I’v ever been in diz position b4, so awful :(* 

Diz aint good!! I gotta b changed!

After all d blessings,, how could I turn myself away from Him,,

Once, sum1 told me dat d stumble-block will b tougher than b4 after we committed ourselves to Him,, n it’s true,, coz for me,, d stumble-block is ME,, MYSELF,, I