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Dalam kesendirianku
Aku bertanya pada Tuhanku

"Tuhan, mengapa aku harus mengalami masa-masa sulit?
Sepertinya penderitaan tak pernah lepas dari hidupku
Dan air mata selalu menghiasi pipi

Masalah demi masalah selalu menghadang
Aku merasa tercekik
Sulit bagiku untuk bernafas
Aku terhimpit dalam kesesakan

"Tuhan, begitu banyak hal yang tak terselami oleh pikiranku"
Aku tak bisa mengerti
Rasa ragu menyelimuti diriku

"Tuhan, apakah Kau ada?"
Sepertinya Kau tak peduli pada diriku
Berbagai pertanyaan berkecamuk dalam benakku

"Tuhan, jawab aku"

"Bantu diriku untuk memahami arti semua ini!"

-Oct 28th, 04-

WORLD is a school of life! Yeah, dat’s 4 me..

I can learn about life from my journey in this world, everything that I saw or experienced…

…I don’t like to see poor people, I can’t stand it, makes me sad. I always wonder, why God created poor and rich people. Mengapa harus ada perbedaan, kalau itu bisa membuat orang saling membenci, menghalalkan segala cara untuk mendapatkan kekayaan, atau banyak hal buruk lainnya.

…I like to hang around with everybody, I don’t care what their jobs are, I know that I can learn a lot of things from them. And sometimes, it helps me to understand abt life and respect it. I admire their struggles in this life! Menurut gw, mereka itu lebih realitas dlm menghadapi hidup ini… I love to share ideas or stories with them.. they’r not as bad as ppl think. Even I think they are much better than ppl in higher level :p

…I know that many bad or awful things happen in this life.. but I don’t realise it til it happens to me. Gosh, the world is bad out there. I always think straight, yes is yes, no is no. That is bad, that is good. But when I know abt the truth and I’m inside of it, I just can’t believe it, I still figure out what I should do.. bingung!

Mmh, ternyata banyak hal yang masih harus gw pelajari dalam hidup ini.. I just believe that God has a purpose for me by giving me all these experiences. Satu hal yang harus gw pertahankan… I have to be on His way all d time.. or otherwise……